I received a call last night at about 10:15 PM. My uncle had died. He was a strong man of a mere 66 years of age, and for the past year had battled the disease of polyneuropathy.
About 18 months ago, My uncle Lynn called my father and explained that he had lost the use of his hands. He was having difficulty holding on to things, and had no idea what was going on. Doctor after doctor, test after test, they were no closer to finding a cause or a cure. The disease reared its fangs to consume more of his body each day. Fear took hold as the future grew dim. Month by month he became trapped inside his body. Cognitively at 100%, his body no longer did what he wanted it to do. Three months ago he went to a restaurant, ordered a hamburger, and just looked at it. He could not lift his hands to pick it up.
I loved my uncle dearly. I remember as a kid he would visit and I would beg my parents to let me hang out on the back patio with him as he smoked cigarettes and told old war stories of his past. He was the Marlboro man. Cool as Bruce Willis in Die Hard without all the Hollywood hype.
The thought of losing the use of my body, and having a fresh mind at the same time scares me more than anything I can think of. I feel sick inside knowing that my Uncle went through this hell. This world sucks sometimes, and I don’t think one of us can make sense of it all. You could argue as his doctors did that his 50 year chain smoking habit is the root cause of his death, but I don’t care. It is still not fair.
I thank the Lord for the incredible and unearned gift of eternal life. It is this gift that truly delivered my Uncle from earthly pain. This is the peace that I have inside through the hurt of his loss.
I am sorry for this depressing post this week, but I would pray that each person reading this would take the time to thank God for the gift of life- both physical and eternal. His mercy endures forever.
There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.